Suddenly wanna write my feelings...

Suddenly very sad..
Tears Drop from my cheek n wet my clothes...
i reali DunO how can I OverCome tis

Action SpeAks loudEr tHaN words...
I HAD been Noe tiS VEry lONG Ago..
But what hAv i diD?
I Seems tat i did nothing!
Always said wanna study hard...
y?
i only left one week for it..
n i still like blur of every sub....


stresss out .............
tears drop as i wrote tis...
heart feels like being stabbed..
the prob is...
how can i help myself?
should i interchange my life?
day change to nite...
n nite change to day

mayb i should do tat.
but the truth is..........
i only hav 1 more week to prepare..
Wil it be useless?
suDdEnly a flash in my mind..
1 person always told me tat we ned to be hardworking if u reali wanna achieve it
but.....
i had never been do it although i noe it

Nth i can Do le.....
Scare..
saD..
AnXious...
Worry..
Reali FrEAked out..

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ReAli HAte hiM dE !!!!!!

caN soME1 Tel Me y?
What I Do is jUz for his own Gud...
He Juz Look LiKE so so so so lan c....
Like a KiND of FacE tat y I'm so annOYing foR him?
PAreNTs alWays ask Me to Take CarE of His AcAdemIc?


cOme on........My foRecaSt edI liKE tat lO.....
what I StILL Do for HiM?
I OnlY can HElp him Some siMPly THings..
I reaLi waNna Help Him De....
Bt EvEn me alSo in diFficuTies...
WhAT CaN i Do???


WhAt cAn I Do If I ReaLi can't Go OverSeas???
AltHough I'm afraiD of it, I ThINk That i'm StilL nt reaLI hardworKiNg enUf..
n SUmOre I NEd to carE foR his StUff???
N He's GiViNG Me thOse unBelievablE facEs......
tiRed De LEh....
I jUz HoPE foR TER70 la...
I noE WHere Is mY liMits de....
i caN't do AnythiNg noW, Even HimseLf ALso duN Care BouT it...ok?


So......duN ask Me Do anYThiNgs of It le....
i NoE me Also Wil SuFfer if He diN Get a avErage reSult.
But....................................
I reALi cAN't do anythiNg le...
I 'm vEry sorry...

Too Tired?

Feel So weird theSe 2 days..
KiNda diffErent ThINkInG theSe 2 dAys...
Like FeeL haviNG moRe MatuRe AcTioN..

Or I'M juz too TireD?
diD i Changed?
They say i looK like tired n diN talK..
Nt Reali TiRed Ba..
Juz MeNTally trYing to fAce the probLem..

DuNno how to descriBE le..
SaW a FeW Ep of Journey to the West...
The POints in it reali motivated me..
Or mayb it's a sign from God...
mayb It's time for mE to chanGe my bad habIts..
n AttiTudes?
Mayb Ba..

OnlY lefT 24 days..
Can I reali do iT?
wiLL i AchieVe what I wan?
No paiN no gAin...
who KnoWs? OnLY God KNow.........

Love is not everything...

sAw the drama Of mooNLigHT ResOnanCe...
What hE said is reali true..
Come on.. Love is not Everything iN ur liFe..
有feel 唔係大晒
EvEn gt feel on him, So ??
Is it reali a big mattER?
sure Is familY comEs 1st..
索唔係大晒
somE ppl migHT be very 索...
bt dun use thAt n do something nt worth de..
it's a great Gift froM God...
爱情唔係大晒...
tis statement more geNG la...
some Ppl might think tat love is every thing, every part of their life
bt there is still many many alot stuffs more meaningful can do.
i reali dun expect tat anymore..
THere is a period of tIme for u to sad..
buT aftEr tat period....
JuZ staNd up agAin n have another commitment.
I hopE tat fRens out tHEre tat sAd of break up..
or SomethiNg about loVe de..
I really hopE thEy wil nOe, understand..
tHere is limited time for u to sad only..
Life Still NEd to Go on..

CAn someone tell me why?

am i really tat bad?
where is all my motivation?
why i am that lazy?
how come do anything also won't success?
am i really tat useless?
mayb i am.
why there are ppl that so hardworking?
while i am not one of them?


where should i find all my motivation?
where did they gone?
dun understand..
rain edi...
so cold..alone doin nth..
sometimes i ned some1 help de lo....
dun juz depend on me to do everything.
he had to help too..


bt y alwayz u guys think that i din do the housework
he's the one din do.
whatever.....
so young edi tired of life..
so young edi duno how to continue...
what can i do?
i'm still like a small kid
duno how to think.
if i am mature enough..
i wil be damn gud now..
whatever..can i really make up my mind tis time?
can i really do it?
?????HAiz

VerY StrESs...

SuddEnly dun hope to become big girl...
dun wanna be 18....
thiNGs change, as our Age getting elder..
mayb u guys r right...
silbling dun noe of our gud..
bt i might nt be a gud sis either...

some1 said i dun care about my bro's matter..
said i lead him to something bad..
even myself..i can't handle my things properly..
what i can said to him i edi said...
what can i still do with tat?

said me selfish.....dun care bout his academic.......
even himself also dun care...u noe?
i'm edi fed up..he doesn't even care what i said to him.
if he reali dun like to study...
juz let it be...it's too late...............
if now only start revising , it's reali too late 4 him.........
in fact, he won't.


my studies edi very bad now...
u said me do assignment then results sure wil be gud..
watever..
both of u dunno what i'm facing..
dunno what i'm doing..
dunno anythin about what i need to do..
i putting effort in my assignments so that it wil helps my TER

u know?i juz dun wan waste time n money..
if i fail or din't get what i wan in Uni, i wil be dead.
that's large amount of money...
i dun wan to retake

mayb i reali dun manage things well...my time, my stuffs..
i noe it's my fault..
i noe both of u tired of ur business n still ned take care us.
bt i'm the one who only helps of the hseworks......
mayb it's little, bt at least i'm doin something.
suddenLy reali stress.....

It's useless !

u hate me?
alright..tat's alright for me now.
I have been alwayz protect u from being scolded..
from being canned...
what i have now?
u Hate me....................
I 'm the one bad temper?
is tat suppose to be u?
can u be more mature?
come on..ur life is only games, sleep, eat..
what else?
OMG..
U seems like never have any worries in ur life.....
u dun worry ur results, dun worry about ur parents..
Even dun worry n have some concern of me..
I have lots and lots of assignments...
homeworks....It wil be annoying 4 me too...

Do u realize how it feels?
i'm nt top student..i'm nt tat brililant..............
i need to think..think very hard compare to someone else...
i ned to put effort on it..
i'm nt u............

can u juz think on my side?
alright..........
if U think i'm annoying.......
FINE.......
Better hope i won'T care bout u anymore?
DO U NOW WHAT IS FED UP?
I NOE IT VERY WELL.....

WhAT Is Going ON?

Duno why...
I ReaLLy can'T coMMunicAte wif Him..
SuMTiMEs We Seems tO Be so ClOSe...
Bt We also Can BE eAsily In ArguMent..


whY ?
I reALLy duNo..
HE suppOse To be Put MorE RespEct to me!
Am i REally tHAt bad?
damN it..


I duno Why He Can be tHAt big temPEr..
CoME on..................
It'S jUZ A smAll maTTer...
does It ReallY wortH To beiNg so rude to Me?
Do yoU reaLIze whAt is SistEr mEan to u?
Or I'm juz USeLEsS N mean noThiNG to you..


thiNGs HAppeneD proVE that I'm noT importanT to You !
MEaningless To yoU......
WhY shOuld I help u When u r In tRuoBLe?
why SHould i ProTect YoU?
why shoUld I carE about you?

It's JUZ SiMPly.......................
YOU ARE MY BROTHER!!!
my onlY broThEr.........


and theSe sAcRifiCes dOn't haV Any rePAy.....
OnLy sAdNEss.........................................

A SiLEnt NigHT?

SuDdenlY Lot OF Stuff on my mInd..
MAke Me cOuLd nT sLeep weLL...

The niGHT iS sooo SiLEnt....
whY i'm ActIng LIke TAt?
I'm tryiNG TO shOW HIm That i'm LiViNg Very GUd....
WiToUt HiM..It SEEms TO be wHat?
DoeS it senSe that i Din FoRget boUT Him Or WhAt?


In My Very DeeP HEARt, i NOe tHat he Mean NOthing to Me..
JUZ ThAt mayb ThaT Is very HUrt....
UnTIL I hav To pRoof him That He mAde a WroNG deciSion.
mAn...TIS souNds so CRiTISm..


We HAve To Look FoRWArd..
OUr FuTURe...
THEre iS more Thing FoR Me to ConCErn about..
that Wound Wil BE recovER when U fiNd OnE PErson
JUz the MAttEr of Time..