CAn someone tell me why?

am i really tat bad?
where is all my motivation?
why i am that lazy?
how come do anything also won't success?
am i really tat useless?
mayb i am.
why there are ppl that so hardworking?
while i am not one of them?


where should i find all my motivation?
where did they gone?
dun understand..
rain edi...
so cold..alone doin nth..
sometimes i ned some1 help de lo....
dun juz depend on me to do everything.
he had to help too..


bt y alwayz u guys think that i din do the housework
he's the one din do.
whatever.....
so young edi tired of life..
so young edi duno how to continue...
what can i do?
i'm still like a small kid
duno how to think.
if i am mature enough..
i wil be damn gud now..
whatever..can i really make up my mind tis time?
can i really do it?
?????HAiz

VerY StrESs...

SuddEnly dun hope to become big girl...
dun wanna be 18....
thiNGs change, as our Age getting elder..
mayb u guys r right...
silbling dun noe of our gud..
bt i might nt be a gud sis either...

some1 said i dun care about my bro's matter..
said i lead him to something bad..
even myself..i can't handle my things properly..
what i can said to him i edi said...
what can i still do with tat?

said me selfish.....dun care bout his academic.......
even himself also dun care...u noe?
i'm edi fed up..he doesn't even care what i said to him.
if he reali dun like to study...
juz let it be...it's too late...............
if now only start revising , it's reali too late 4 him.........
in fact, he won't.


my studies edi very bad now...
u said me do assignment then results sure wil be gud..
watever..
both of u dunno what i'm facing..
dunno what i'm doing..
dunno anythin about what i need to do..
i putting effort in my assignments so that it wil helps my TER

u know?i juz dun wan waste time n money..
if i fail or din't get what i wan in Uni, i wil be dead.
that's large amount of money...
i dun wan to retake

mayb i reali dun manage things well...my time, my stuffs..
i noe it's my fault..
i noe both of u tired of ur business n still ned take care us.
bt i'm the one who only helps of the hseworks......
mayb it's little, bt at least i'm doin something.
suddenLy reali stress.....

It's useless !

u hate me?
alright..tat's alright for me now.
I have been alwayz protect u from being scolded..
from being canned...
what i have now?
u Hate me....................
I 'm the one bad temper?
is tat suppose to be u?
can u be more mature?
come on..ur life is only games, sleep, eat..
what else?
OMG..
U seems like never have any worries in ur life.....
u dun worry ur results, dun worry about ur parents..
Even dun worry n have some concern of me..
I have lots and lots of assignments...
homeworks....It wil be annoying 4 me too...

Do u realize how it feels?
i'm nt top student..i'm nt tat brililant..............
i need to think..think very hard compare to someone else...
i ned to put effort on it..
i'm nt u............

can u juz think on my side?
alright..........
if U think i'm annoying.......
FINE.......
Better hope i won'T care bout u anymore?
DO U NOW WHAT IS FED UP?
I NOE IT VERY WELL.....